Yesterday shattered me in the best way possible.
Yesterday the Therapeutic BDSM supervision pilot came to a close. Eight humans, three months of intensity, vulnerability, and witnessing, ended with a shift so profound I still don’t have the language to describe it.
The supervision came about as a response to a lack identified and a need communicated from the last TBCN cohort training, and so, I responded with an idea.
I offered an opportunity to be a part of a testing of the model. An alumni student would hold the space and the role of clinician, while another would hold the space and the role of the certified BDSM facilitator, the other students would witness, off camera, on mute, and I would be the client.
Together we would strength test the entire process. And so, we did.
The documentation, the manuals, the assessment of fit and readiness, treatment planning, goal setting, the collaboration between clinician, facilitator, and client, the handoff to the facilitator, the scene design in alignment with the stated treatment goals, the drop, the integration sessions, the timing of them, the support in between sessions and scenes, the wrap up, and closing.
I am speechless…
All I can currently say is that we thought we knew how powerful this work could be, when in reality, we had no fucking idea.
Everyone is forever changed. “I” am forever changed, and I am so damn grateful, proud, and in awe of each of us. The right people were in the right roles, and we made magic. Sometimes dark, heavy, intense, extremely sad, and heartbreaking, but dammit, by the end of it…
We went through all four pillars of the Therapeutic Model that holds this work:
Awareness
Acceptance
Attunement
and last is Atonement, where we introduce Therapeutic BDSM, and that was exactly where I landed.
Big Yulinda had to atone to little Yulinda, for taking so long to be safe enough for her to be fully seen, heard, understood, and chosen.
Stay tuned, because once we have all had a moment to process, we will share the full experience, together.
Thank you for continuing to be a witness to the work.
Doc
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